"This little guiding light of mineThis song had been running in my head for the past 4 days,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little guiding light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
This little guiding light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine, all the time, let it shine...."
a song i used to sing long long ago during my school
days.I don't know how i remembered this song suddenly,
but it just came into my head one fine moment!
"Hop into bed,turn out the lights,you shall have a party
in your dreams tonight,it's Pajama time!"I closed the
book with a huge smile on my face thankful that it was
all over.....but not yet!"One more time amma!pleeeeese"
my older son pleaded."This is the last time"I declared
firmly."The moon is up ,it's getting late,lets get
ready to celebrate,it's Pajama Time!"I started of for
the 100th time,trying to save the last bit of enthusiasm
in my voice.My head was reeling from reciting the words
over and over again.Just then i heard my little one's
wail.Ah!! a savior at last!and i jumped&ran to pick up
my 2nd son.My older son followed me with a frown.
I was the girlie-st of girls you could ever
find.I never climbed trees,always played with dolls,
loved to dress up and of course wear PINK!!!
and now i have 2 BOYS!!!The experience is over whelming!!
I still throw a wishful glance towards the girls toys at
the toy store but no!I am not given chance to even
stand by that aisle I would soon be pulled towards the
garbage trucks& Thomas trains."Which one should we buy?
"my hubby would ask my opinion...If you ask me,the
barbie doll with the Cinderella costume is gorgeous!
My heart would scream.but all I would say out loud is
"uummm....how much do they cost?" The easiest and only
way known to me to select boys stuff.
"Just feed a baby around 6-8 ounces of
milk before bed to help him sleep through the night"
I slammed shut the parenting book,raised my
eyebrows&shrugged my shoulders,if only it were that easy.
I doted on the parenting books when i had my first son.
I read them every day and even revised them every once
in a while!but none of the stuff written in the book
worked for my baby!!It didn't the first time and it
doesn't work this time too with my second son.I never
the less read it&re-read it and keep reading it.
Even though none of the techniques in the book worked,
i managed to handle my son quite well.He is 3&1/2 yrs
now.With my 1st son's experience i am now quite at ease
with the situation with my 10 month old 2nd son.
Babies are different and they both still continue to
throw surprises at me but the overall journey is not
quite as anxious as the first time.
So what do mothers have that make them smile,laugh,cry,
shout!throw up their hands and call it quits,wake up the
next day and do it all over again?This is where my song
comes in!The guiding light.....the guiding light that
God has given every mother who needs no best selling
author to tell her how to put her baby to sleep,or to
take classes to love,care,connect and deeply feel for
the miracle she has given birth to.Its this guiding
light that leads her through dark tunnels and unknown
paths...She is still a normal woman and sometimes makes
mistakes but its the mothers milk that ultimately calms
the baby and in her heart shines the little guiding light.
days.I don't know how i remembered this song suddenly,
but it just came into my head one fine moment!
"Hop into bed,turn out the lights,you shall have a party
in your dreams tonight,it's Pajama time!"I closed the
book with a huge smile on my face thankful that it was
all over.....but not yet!"One more time amma!pleeeeese"
my older son pleaded."This is the last time"I declared
firmly."The moon is up ,it's getting late,lets get
ready to celebrate,it's Pajama Time!"I started of for
the 100th time,trying to save the last bit of enthusiasm
in my voice.My head was reeling from reciting the words
over and over again.Just then i heard my little one's
wail.Ah!! a savior at last!and i jumped&ran to pick up
my 2nd son.My older son followed me with a frown.
I was the girlie-st of girls you could ever
find.I never climbed trees,always played with dolls,
loved to dress up and of course wear PINK!!!
and now i have 2 BOYS!!!The experience is over whelming!!
I still throw a wishful glance towards the girls toys at
the toy store but no!I am not given chance to even
stand by that aisle I would soon be pulled towards the
garbage trucks& Thomas trains."Which one should we buy?
"my hubby would ask my opinion...If you ask me,the
barbie doll with the Cinderella costume is gorgeous!
My heart would scream.but all I would say out loud is
"uummm....how much do they cost?" The easiest and only
way known to me to select boys stuff.
"Just feed a baby around 6-8 ounces of
milk before bed to help him sleep through the night"
I slammed shut the parenting book,raised my
eyebrows&shrugged my shoulders,if only it were that easy.
I doted on the parenting books when i had my first son.
I read them every day and even revised them every once
in a while!but none of the stuff written in the book
worked for my baby!!It didn't the first time and it
doesn't work this time too with my second son.I never
the less read it&re-read it and keep reading it.
Even though none of the techniques in the book worked,
i managed to handle my son quite well.He is 3&1/2 yrs
now.With my 1st son's experience i am now quite at ease
with the situation with my 10 month old 2nd son.
Babies are different and they both still continue to
throw surprises at me but the overall journey is not
quite as anxious as the first time.
So what do mothers have that make them smile,laugh,cry,
shout!throw up their hands and call it quits,wake up the
next day and do it all over again?This is where my song
comes in!The guiding light.....the guiding light that
God has given every mother who needs no best selling
author to tell her how to put her baby to sleep,or to
take classes to love,care,connect and deeply feel for
the miracle she has given birth to.Its this guiding
light that leads her through dark tunnels and unknown
paths...She is still a normal woman and sometimes makes
mistakes but its the mothers milk that ultimately calms
the baby and in her heart shines the little guiding light.
This little guiding light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
This little guiding light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
This little guiding light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine, all the time, let it shine
Hide it under a bushel, no
I'm gonna let it shine
Hide it under a bushel, no
I'm gonna let it shine
Hide it under a bushel, no
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine, all the time, let it shine
Take my little light round the world
I'm gonna let it shine
Take my little light round the world
I'm gonna let it shine
Take my little light round the world
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine, all the time, let it shine
Don't you blow my little light out
I'm gonna let it shine
Don't you blow my little light out
I'm gonna let it shine
Don't you blow my little light out
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine, all the time, let it shine
awesome that u started blogging.am sure its a great outlet for u. keep it going.
ReplyDeleteThanks shubha,yes i wish i had started earlier.
ReplyDeleteWhat a sweet post, Vids! I really felt for you in the toy store part. *sigh* I'm so glad I have a lil girl to dress up in pink. I don't know what God has in store for me next but I'm kind of hoping for a girl again, only because at least I know what to expect. A boy will be an enigma for me! :)
ReplyDeleteYes! you're lucky to have a girl.Everything said&done a girl is always a mom's best friend!but girls or boys you'll have a lot of "AAAAaaaaaah!i wish they would vanish into thin air for just 5 mins!!!" kind of moments.You have people around so you should be fine overall.Raising kids alone is super draining and life is no less than a circus for me!never the less a smile from them makes me forget all the hardship....All the best for all the sweet surprises :)
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