Thursday, April 15, 2010

When clouds hover over my head these thoughts run through my mind

The place where i live is surrounded by mountains and hence year round cloudy.It rains a lot and sunshine is a welcome sight!The air is chilly and people complain that they get depressed due to the dull weather and lack of sunshine.Weather has never affected my moods.When i came to this country many years ago i landed in a much warmer place that had sunshine year round!but my fear of a new place,new surrounding,new people and a new relationship made me build an invisible wall around me but i still made friends and had a good time. The sunshine didn't in particular add to my happiness or anything.My friends from school and college think I am an extrovert but in reality I am an Introvert.I take a long time to open up to people and share my life.I make friends easily,i laugh,i have a good time but I'm very cautious about taking them into my personal life.I have a very hard time opening myself up and sharing my problems.I am like a snail who hides in its shell.My hubby is just the opposite!whatever goes into his ears and his mind comes out of his mouth!His conversations have given me quite a shock in the beginning.The art of letting the thoughts go out is actually good.It doesn't trap the energy inside but i stay hidden in my shell,peeping out at times only to hurry back in at the slightest provocation.When emotions overwhelm me i go into silence.I love silence.It gives me time to dwell upon my thoughts.My silence may make me seem to be a moody or proud person but in reality silence is my way of gathering myself up.it means I've gone into my shell and need time to assess my emotions.Two years back we moved from the warm sunny place to the mountains where it rains year round.Its been two years but my hubby still compares the weather and complains about the dark clouds that hover around most days but the clouds don't bother me at all!I am what I am and the clouds can't change me!I am still happy with life and i still hide in my shell,i still go into bouts of silence until i am refreshed and ready to face the grind.I know the rains can dampen happy picnics and outdoor fun but its the sunshine after the rains that bring about the rainbow!So rain or shine life is still fine!

4 comments:

  1. I always knew you were an introvert. Maybe not initially but subtle mannerisms made it evident. :)

    I chanced upon your blog one day, I don't remember how I landed here, but it was before you had put up any posts. I remember reading your About Me para and thinking "Wow! That's really well written!" So when you gave me the link to your blog I was pleasantly surprised to find myself back at this pink blog. :) Keep writing.

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  2. :) yes i guess my close friends with whom i'v lived with and spent 3 years sharing laughter&tears do know me well!!

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  3. you know - knowing who you are and what you want to be is a big deal.knowing where you are and where you want to be is a big deal.knowing where could ve been and where you should be is a big deal. and managing this information in the mind is still a bigger deal.

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  4. Gyanban,I need to think about what you just wrote !:)

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